A story of love, loss, and 50 chickens penned by a former Aldergrove resident is a memoir about her experience moving to a farm with her husband.
Bill Buck had dementia, and Pauline knew she would need help as her husband鈥檚 disease progressed.
In August 2008, the couple moved closer to their daughter 鈥� from a 1,600-square-foot urban condo to a 3,000 square-foot split-level house on a five-acre hobby farm.
Ten years later, Pauline released Winging It, a memoir about her days as a newbie farmer and her challenging role as a dementia caregiver.
The book opens with Pauline realizing that her worst nightmare has come to pass. Bill, her husband of 23 years, no longer recognizes her.
鈥淎nd that鈥檚 when the fun begins,鈥� she said.
The book follows Pauline鈥檚 journey as she hops on the 鈥榟ow-to-be-farmers鈥� learning curve 鈥� chasing escapee chickens around the yard, mastering how to flick a laden stall fork out to the poo pile without wearing any of it, and learning to carry water to a barn suffering from frozen pipes.
In those 10 years, a lot changed in Pauline鈥檚 life.
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She learned that it is possible to cherish the husband who is 鈥渄isappearing鈥� before her very eyes while fulfilling the role of number one caregiver. Five years after moving to the farm, Bill passed away, but Pauline said her book would offer caregivers a glimpse into how she handled some of life鈥檚 surprises.
Now an Abbotsford resident, Pauline had lived in Aldergrove for seven years. Her connection with Aldergrove is strong and growing. She is an active member of the Aldergrove Rotary Club, where she dedicates her time volunteering for community service projects.
A former public relations consultant, Pauline said writing came naturally to her.
She wanted people experiencing caregiving situations to know that there is light at the end of the tunnel.
She said it is very challenging to be the permanent caregiver for someone.
鈥淭here is no instruction manual on this,鈥� she chuckled. 鈥淪ometimes, we get mad at the person but it is important to forgive ourselves for mistakes that we make.鈥�
She advises caregivers to regularly check in with their partners and understand the feelings of the person dealing with dementia.
鈥淚 should have asked Bill how he felt when doctors told him he had dementia. I feel bad鈥� I feel really bad about that,鈥� she said.
鈥淲ish I had talked to him more,鈥� Pauline said before taking a pause. 鈥溾�bout what it was like for him to know that he was going to start losing his memory.鈥�
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After Bill鈥檚 death, it took Pauline about three years to start the new chapter of life.
鈥淚 think all new widows go through a stage that I call 鈥榥ow what?鈥� and one of my challenges was figuring out what the rest of my life would look like now that I was on my own,鈥� she said.
With support from friends and family, Pauline lives happily in a townhouse with 鈥渧ery nice鈥� neighbours and her golden doodle, Charlie, a companion that keeps her 鈥渦p and at 鈥榚m鈥� in all weather.
Pauline has decided to donate a portion of the proceeds from the book to the Alzheimer鈥檚 Society of British Columbia.
Winging It 鈥� A story of love, loss, and fifty chickens, a self-published book is available online on , , and . For more information on the book, people can visit her website, .
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